Hello everybody!!
It's been a while since I've posted anything on here. Just wanted to say hello and tell you guys how I'm doing.
Not going to lie things haven't been going well at all. I seem to be getting in a deeper hole day after day. It seems that nothing I do is right or interest me at all. It's very hard to get up and deal with day to day life anymore. It just drags on and last forever. I feel like I'm running in all these different directions and going nowhere with my life.
It's hard for me to even go to work or even play video games. Which I say is that I'm busy but, the truth is I'm just not interested in anything. I try to talk to people the least amount that I can. I feel like that for the most part I'm in the worse mental shape of my life.
I feel like that I'm the worst possible person, even though on a daily basis I'm told that I'm awesome. Just don't believe them.
Feeling like I don't fit in anywhere sucks. Been wanting to find a new job but, hard to get any motivation for that or anything non watching YouTube related.
I've cut myself off from all people. Never talk about my feeling which it's hard to tell what ones are my real feelings or just my depression.
Just seem like I'm going no where fast and about to have a mental breakdown.
Thank you for reading.
